yes, it is the everlasting problem, the problem that can drive rifts between couples, cause brother to turn against brother, and child against parent. i utterly detest it that i am earning so little. it is jolly fine for ppl who has been brought up so, but not me. i have been brought up surrounded with shit loads of material stuff, and all of them are by no means cheap. my folks they love me so but in effect they have spoilt me thoroughly, and now i have no concept of saving, leaving me with nothing for the big things in life. i hate myself for being such a big spender, all that drinking that i have done in the past, smoking and all, i should have saved.
now comes the time when i need the money, and yet have none. mum has been nagging much about saving, but seriously, as my sis has retorted before, we are brought up in a very different era, where materialism is a major key to happiness, however short term. mind you my sis earns shits loads more then i do and mum still nags at her.
i want little, in terms of variety, but the few vices that i have, i indulge excessively in them. smoking being the most financially draining. it is my fault i know, and curse the government for raising the taxes again, now sgd11 for a fucking pack of dunhills, making it 55cts for a fag. this is nuts. very soon i will just smoke dried field grass (Not weed).
at my current pay, it is way below market rate, granted, i am only a fresh grad, but hey, company has been making money right? so where is my raise? i need a new job, or at east one that pays better, but that will not happen at least until august, one year in a job to gain the so called experience. but then again, why do i feel like i am not learning?
this is it, i am gonna to start responding to job openings, i need better pay, need more money. i know short cuts ain't the way out to more money, but i so hope that mum would sell the house and gimme a loan for a place of me own. the condo next door are going for en-bloc sale, let the deal be settled fast and lets hope the developer need more land than usual and pay us money aplenty for my house. me folks find the house too big for them two as well anyways.
