Screwed

It was meant to be a good day, i had every intention of making it special, booking the diner ahead of time, etc. Chain of events just turned out wrong, my planning and all, working late, making my dearest pissed of, getting the wrong color dress etc etc, not knowing how to say sorry, i made one blunder after another, i feel like asking myself, what the fuck is going through your mind nash? how the hell did it turn out so wrong? me, thats whats wrong. sorry my dear for such a terrible valentines, it was my fault and i hope to make it up to you. i am truly sorry.

valentine

i was flawed and broken, weak and lost
i have hurt you so deeply
and made you wept like never before
i have doubted and questioned
for i was afraid, of pain and commitment
of causing you pain
and though i know that its me and only me
me, the root of all you pain
still, inadvertently i've done you harm

for all the tears that fell
for all the pain and blood
for all you self doubts thats been stirred
i am sorry
i've never meant to hurt you at all
i've never meant to make you weep
for every grievous hurt i've caused
for every wrong; past present and future
i shall eternally be sorry

this is my pledge to you
i promise you my life
to take care of you
to the best of my abilities
i promise you my love
that regardless of whatever happens
i will not stop loving you
i shall keep you and protect you
to give to you my best, and then some
i dedicate to you my entirety,
you shall be my one and only
the love of my life

happy valentine to my wife...shelly