My fault, yet again

Her brother just did it once to many times
and all i did was just asking him not to do it again
my intent was just a firm voice i swear
but it came out all wrong
and she got angry
and i got defensive
and it all went horribly wrong

what i meant was firmness
she saw aggression
i have no defense against that
she saw what she saw
and no amount of explaining can reverse that
it all boils down to one point
one moment in time
when i made the mistake
of hurting her too deeply

i am sorry my love
my mistake i will carry
for all eternity
i was everything to you
and now i am nothing
it was me who ruin it
i know
you scarred for my mistake
and so did i

because you are in my life
i fought against all that haunts me
i became stronger
because you loved me
and i wanna be the man
that you will ever need
but i have failed, yet again

a friend told me
that no one should ever be responsible
for another's happiness
but when you utterly destroyed a person
do you not become responsible for that person
i have hurt you deep
so deep that it seems impossible to redeem myself
many times i feel like giving up
because you have given up on me

i am too set in my ways
my selfish ways
in my lazy ways
i am but a jaded soul
who feels have overstayed my time on this world
i only have one last breath
and i was only six feet from the edge
but i held on
that last breath
that breath of aggression
to suck it up and go

you gave me hope
you made me alive
you gave me my second and third breath
but at the expense of my living
i have selfishly hurt you
i am sorry
i know time can never be turned back
i know these scars will never heal
no matter what i do
i know you are waiting for your rescue
and i have exhausted my chances
but i still wanna try
i still love you
i always will
my guilt shall haunt me
forever

no one in this world
have i ever committed
a greater wrong
no one else in this world
has broken me as much as you did
for once in my life i feel alive
and yet i have to fuck it all up